Friday, October 31, 2008

MS Fatigue !!!

YIKES !! and here i was, minding my own business, then i was suddenly slapped with Fatigue !!!

don't like it. don't like it one single bit. but what can i do? i don't want to have MS anymore. i don't want to play anymore. and just as i was getting rid of my bladder infection from the freaking chemotheraphy. ggggrrrrrrrr.

i want to scream. i want to kill someone, something.... whatever.

i want this all to just go away, at least for the next year or two. this is the third MS bout i've had since May !!! not good. not fair.

what's next ? i guess i have to go see my neuro about this all. i might as well go to Carossis, because Talianski will be totally useless and just tell me *go to Carossis*, since i haven't seen him in ages. uugghh.

at least Rico is here and we're watching a very stupid movie that's making the two of us giggle quite a lot :-) he's so wonderful.

gotta go and get myself more rested. the brain fog is getting to me.

Shabbat Shalom everyone !!

Thursday, October 30, 2008

God is SO good to me

those little red pills did the trick, within a matter of hours. of course, i have to take them for a few more days, but at least the horrible pain is gone.

i'm now going to work on ourmodiin until i have to go out this afternoon to get the check from Leah. i'm SO grateful that everything worked out with the loan... otherwise, we'd be in deep, deep shit.

here's to a great day !!

Wednesday, October 29, 2008

uugghh....

just when i thought i was getting out... they pull me back in.

i was feeling SO freaking good for so long and all of a sudden this stupid bladder infection had to swoop down on me today. boy did it knock me out. i went out in the morning, feeling really good, and i came home a few hours later, feeling like a wet mop.

oh well, the meds had kicked in and some of the burn has gone away.

i'm not on the computer today though. i'm feeling a bit tired and i don't want to push anything to the limit. i also got a flu shot, so that might be part of the whole picture right now.

for now, peace out everyone !!

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

back on the Boards !!

happy dance !! i'm back on the DietWatch boards.

i have no idea who made what happen, but thanks to the powers that be :-)

peace out everyone !!

found it !!

just when i was ready to give up for the day... i found it :-)

now, to work on the whole thing.

trying to find a list of government offices....

what a project.... just finding the freaking list !! i KNOW that there is one out there, but i just can't find it. maybe my brain just isn't working properly right now *shrug*.

i did a lot today on the site. but still not enough. i don't want to get into the *misc.* file that i have because it's just too scattered for words. i'll have to tackle that file when i have a very clear mind and will be able to set up all the information correctly.

i'm counting down the hours to the moment when i go back inside Holmes Place and get myself back on track with my weight-loss. i have to get this done. i can't stay at this weight forever. i know i can do it. and this time i'm going to do it !!! :-)

i need to go rest for awhile and clear my mind. i need to take a bit of time off the computer and figure out what to do with all that *misc.* crap that is waiting for me *shrug, again*. it'll make me crazy until i actually get it done. oh well... yet another challenge.

OH, and then there's the 120+ free ads to place on the site !! YIKES. i have no idea how i'm going to finish that. it's very daunting. i'll have to alphebetize it all too... yuck. if not, people won't be able to figure things out easily and they'll be turned off from the whole idea.

time to go rest my grey matter.

peace out everyone !!

DietWatch Friends of Mine !!!

i still can't get into the site !! i miss you all SO much... too much for words.

i've written to the Support Team, with no answer so far.

maybe one of you Board Community Leaders can help me out with this ? Pleezzzzzz :-)

i'm okay, even after that very long day in Jerusalem yesterday. my treatment went just fine. Racheli drove me there, read a book the whole time and helped me out with every little thing i needed :-) she's just amazing !! then she took me to do some very important errands around Jerusalem. we got back to Modiin at 7pm (left in the morning at 8am).

i'm still tired, but i'm going to work on the website as much as possible today.

write to me here, if you see this post.

take care.

peace out everyone !!

Monday, October 27, 2008

too tired for words.....

an 11 hour day in Jerusalem has left me speechless. i'm so tired.

i'll be here tomorrow, after i get a good night's sleep (?) who knows with all the steroids i was given today.

peace out everyone :-) !!

Sunday, October 26, 2008

i can't get into the boards !!!

DietWatch posters: i can't get into the boards !!!

i changed my virus protection program and the new one killed some of my cookies that enabled me to get into certain sites.

i've written to the DietWatch Support Team, but i have no idea when they'll get back to me. in the meantime, i'll be missing you desperately :-( !!!

i have a treatment tomorrow, monday, and Racheli will be taking me. she managed to do yet another stupid thing with her father's car, but it was taken care of without any major damages being done. we just don't know what to do with her. Oren, her father, told her that she now has to read the driving theory book, as punishment, so that she learns everything *from the beginning*. we'll see how that goes.

while were in Jerusalem i'll be able to get a few important errands done. one is going to my bank, which i haven't been to in about 10 years. it's my original branch and i've not had to use it since there's a branch here in Modiin. hopefully traffic won't be too bad and we'll be able to find good parking wherever we go.

i'm now going back to the sofa, to watch tv the rest of the evening. i worked many, many hours on the website today and i'm just knackered.

peace out everyone :-) !!

Saturday, October 25, 2008

got lots done today :-)

i got up at 6am and now it's 5pm, time to get off the computer. i got so much done and i'm very proud of myself.

my eye tells me when to stop. when i start to see a fuzzy screen, it's time.

i got the *decorating 101* section done, to an extent. there's enough content in there right now to just leave it as it is and pick it back up after i get the rest of the site *done*.

i found a wonderful website that created a drop-dowm menu for me. boy is that handy. no need to work so hard on all the hand-coding. i also found a cool calendar, but it looks like it'll take a lot of time and energy to figure it all out. that'll be done another day, when i'm fresh and full of energy.

i'll be working real hard on the site tomorrow, and on monday i have a treatment in Jerusalem :-( i HATE going there. i don't mind the treatments, just the pain in the ass travelling.

time to go rest now.

peace out everyone !!

finally feeling well rested

oh boy, did i sleep a lot yesterday. i took my night meds at 8pm (the first time ever) and i was knocked out by 8:30. i also turned the phone off, so no one would wake me up and screw up my early sleep.

so, today i'm ready to work a lot on the website. i'm now trying to decide exactly what i'm going to work on today. i'm kind of tired of doing the translating stuff, so i think i'll just do some English content stuff. God knows that i have tons of content to add to the site !!

it's going to be a great day. the weather seems to finally be the beginning of fall and it just *feels* great.

i'm hoping that Tomi doesn't make me crazy today. he kept jumping up on top of me last night, but i just kept kicking him off. he finally understood that i didn't want his heavy little body on my feet or legs. he's getting a bit better at *understanding* (read: behaving).

onward and upward !!

Friday, October 24, 2008

a very long week !!

on the one hand, i can't belive that it's already friday again... and almost the end of the month to boot. on the other hand, this has been a super long weel !! YIKES !!

i've worked very hard on the website all week long and i've sat at the computer for days and days. no wonder i'm so tired today. i slept 12 hours last night, and even with that great sleep, it took me a few hours to completely *wake up*.

thank God that Nina and Tamar took off to Tel Aviv. i would not have been able to handle them here over the weekend. Tamar has been a real pain in the ass lately, all the time claiming that she's bored. well, i guess that since the work on the campaign has been cut back, she really is bored. but still.... she should be looking for a job now, or finding ways to stay out of my face.

Racheli, Oren and a friend of theirs came over yesterday for a bit. they had been in Jerusalem on an errand that Oren had to make. it was very nice to meet their friend, Mitka. she's a very interesting, 30-something beauty, married to a good friend of Oren, whom i don't know. evidently she had heard a lot about me and was really gracious and kind. a very out-going, positive person that i would really like to get to know one day.

Oren was very kind and slipped me some money, since i'm completely broke. i haven't been this broke in such a long time that i was really stressed out these past few days. but God being God, everything turned out well in the end :-)

Jeri and Reggie have been keeping me on my toes on Facebook. they are such a riot !! Reggie is an old friend of Jeri, who lives in Australia and he's online 24/7. he's sooooo funny. Jeri keeps sending me the best *gifts*. what a blast.

Tomi, the puppy, is on the brink of getting his ass kicked out of this home. he's making me completely crazy and i don't have the energy to train him. next week, God willing, we'll finally take him to get his shots, so Nina can take him out more often.

i'm now going back to the sofa and keep watching tv and resting. i have to do this so i have the energies i need for the coming week. there is a specific why God created a day of rest ;-)

peace out everyone !!

Saturday, October 11, 2008

i'm tired......

i'm physically tired all the time. ever since i ran out of my vitamins last week :-( i'll get a few bottles next week when i go to the clinic. they really make a difference.

i didn't work so much on the site today. i was interrupted by Nina and Tamar all the time, wanting the computer. i've GOT to get their's fixed soon !

i also had a hard time getting into the translation of a lot of material from the municipal website. too much for my brain to process when i'm tired. i hope to progess more tomorrow.

Oren will be coming tomorrow, to do a few *handyman* jobs around the apartment. there are things that have just accumulated in the past two years and it's about time he found time for this. no use hiring someone else to do it, especially when i don't have any money.

i'm having a great time corresponding with Jeri on Facebook. she's such a riot. even at the ripe old age of 50 she's a blast ! and she looks SO wonderful. a Little Oriental Flower ;-) she's a freelance photographer and business is tough now with the economic situation in the US.

okay, i'm way too tired to be on the computer.

peace out everyone !! see ya all tomorrow.

wow........

it's been a very long 6 days !

the second that Mami called and i heard her voice, i knew that something horrible had happened. she told me that my dear, sweet, loving, caring, giving Uncle Edward had died on monday. she had tried calling me on tuesday, but since it was 2am here, no one heard the phone ring.

i was in a state of shock and sadness and pain for the first few days. i couldn't breathe properly, i ate too much candy at one time and almost passed out (good thing i don't have diabetes anymore), and i just cried all the time.

but with God's help, i slowly came around and was able to function by Shabbat. i came to the computer and just started working of ourmodiin.co.il ..... slowly. i took it one page at a time, and the next thing i knew, it was time to get off the computer and chill out in front of the tv.

sunday, monday and today have been good. i get sad whenever i think of my Uncle Edward. but i get much more sad when i think that my Auntie Paz is all alone now. i have absolutely no idea how she's going to handle all this.

i've made a lot of progress on the site... especially those pesky bus schedules. i HATE translating things from Hebrew into English. but i can't not do it. that's the purpose of the site. good thing i've learned how to read Hebrew, even though i can't write it to save my life !!

Nina and Tamar are very ready to go back to school on thursday. they've been super difficult these past few days, and i've had to keep myself from just killing them. but they both calmed down today, mostly because Tamar spent the night at a friend's house. Nina got up and washed the floors all over the house :-) it was such a wreck before that. Tomi has got to go.... yeah, right.

it's now time for me to go and zone in front of the tv. i'm way too tired to stay on this techie thing. enough already.

OH !!! i forgot to mention the most important thing in the past few days !!!!! Jeri, from university, contacted me through Facebook and now we're lovers again ;-) i had searched for her high and low and all of a sudden she found me !!! YAY !! i'm also a Facebook Friend with Brad... oh, *our* Brad... *sigh*. what a heart-breaker he was in the day.

peace out everyone !!

i'm never going to finish !!

YIKES !! i feel like i'm never going to finish the site !! well, *finish* is not the right word. i should say *get it prepared enough* that's the way i feel right now.

but i'm plugging along, everyday, about 8 hours a day. i get tired and once i get off the computer i can't come back. if i try to come back after i rest a bit, my one good eye gets blurry and i can't see well. it's just from being tired (please don't freak out anyone !!)

Racheli is here now, watching cable tv, which neither Oren or Rico have in Tel Aviv. she said they also don't have an internet connection right now, which is really strange. i guess Rico couldn't work out all the kinks in Oren's computer, so that might be the reason why there isn't internet on his computer. i'm just wondering why Rico and Racheli can't pick up anyone's wireless connection in the neighborhood. usually they have it in Rico's apartment, but Racheli says that it's been gone for about 2 weeks now. that must be brutal for Rico... the internet junkie :-)

Nina and Tamar have been really busy working on the campaign for Yigal for Mayor. they'll be really busy with that job all week, since they're off from school due to the Succot holiday.

i'm now going to be with Racheli for awhile and we'll giggle a lot together !!!

ROCHELLE !!!

thank you so much for posting a comment.

i would really like to get in touch with you, to maybe help you through some of the ins and outs of your new city.

you can reach me at : ninatamar@hotmail.com whenever you want !!

have a wonderful Succot !!

Tuesday, October 7, 2008

solved the *search* problem

i solved the *search* issue on the website :-) i had been using Google, but they all of a sudden started charging for the service.

then i combed the web and found a wonderful site that provides me with a search engine on the site !!! yay !!!

all i need to do now is change all the pages to get rid of Google and insert the new code. way too many pages to do it in one day.

i didn't go to my treatment yesterday and now i'm wondering if i didn't make a horrible mistake. i forgot that next week is full of Succot and that the oncology clinic will most likely be closed.

well... maximum, if something happens, i can always go to the emergency room. not something that i want to do, but it's there if i need it.

time to go chill out, in front of the tv.

Sunday, October 5, 2008

things are going good :-)

i've been moving along with the site at a very good pace. i'm finding the flow of the site to be easier now that i have some large chuncks done. there is still A LOT to do, especially in the translations, but i'll get it done, one step at a time.

we've been busy with our insane month of holidays. last week was Rosh HaShana. we had a grand time !! Rico and Racheli cooked, Nina and Tamar cleaned up, Oren came and gave me a wad of money.... everything was perfect :-) after dinner we sat around the table and just goofed around for a couple of hours. Nina was a clown. she gets into the silliest moods sometimes and this was one of the best !

Tamar drank THREE glasses of wine, when no one was looking, and by the end of the evening (after mid-night sometime) she was quite wasted. she really has a taste for wine and i'm praying that it will never get out of hand. it's the first time she's done something like that right under our noses. i'm pretty sure it's the first time she's ever done it, because she's always with Nina when she goes out and Nina would have ratted her out by now.

this week is Yom Kippur... i think on Wednesday. don't ask me because all of these holidays just keep on coming, one after the other. then *next* week is the 7-day holiday of Succot. by the time we finish with all the holidays we're all ready to kill each other. it's not like summer vacation because things are closed and there's not much for Nina and Tamar to do, but hang out with their friends late into the night.

about Nina and Tamar.... they are both now working !!! YAY !! Nina finally got the job of everyone's dreams at Domino Pizza, at the shopping center about 3 minutes from home. it's a fantasy job for any kid in Modiin. if you're a good worker you can work there for many years... even all the way through the army. Sunny worked there for about 2 years and loved it. she was the first girl allowed to work in the kitchen, and the last girl to work in the kitchen. they never found anyone as good as her. but Nina has the same potential that Sunny had, and she really wants to be in the kitchen one day.

Tamar is very busy working on the mayoral candidate campaign for our guy, Yigal Tzadok. we are all involved in his campaign. if God is good to us, he'll win. he has a cracking team and is really making himself visible. it's a bit of a pain in the ass with all these holidays kind of getting in the way, but he's managing to get the field workers (all teenagers) out in the heat and giving out flyers and ballons and whatever else.

Rico is busy working with Oren. Oren pays him well so Rico is a happy camper. he still doesn't know what he wants to do with himself, but for now he's happy working with Oren and keeping busy making good money.

Racheli is another matter altogether. she's bouncing around from friends to friends to family and back home in Tel Aviv. she finds herself bored a lot of the time, which is strange because there are so many people that she visits with all the time !! i think it's just a matter of getting used to being back here, without the pressing thoughts of having to go back to LA. she has no idea what she wants to do here, but she'll start thinking about it after the holidays.

i'm going back to the gym after the holidays (geez, i wish they'd finish already !!) and i'm going to really enjoy being back in the free-weights room and the pool. i can't wait !!! my lower back really needs me working on the weights and in the pool. i can't stand up for more than a few minutes without feeling a lot of pain.

i've been cooking a bit lately. yeah, cooking. it's a matter of finances, nothing more. we can't afford to keep ordering food in, and the girls are too busy to do the cooking now. i have to dig into my memory bank to *find* some simple recipes that don't require me to stand too long in the kitchen.

it's STILL SOOOOOOO HOT HERE !!!! i want to die ! summer came back today and it was almost unbearable. Nina almost passed out when she came home from school. no one was ready for the heat today. i know it's just going to get worse until Yom Kippur, because God likes to have it hot on the one major fast ;-)

time to go rest now. i've been on the computer too long today.

ta ta !

(check out the pictures of Sunny below)

Sunny, in her modeling days




isn't she beautiful ??? i found these in a buried file on my computer.